My attention span is seriously small. I’ve been talking about getting my jewelry business back on track and I even have a long list of things that need to be accomplished in this vein.
But all I want to do is knit.
Ever since I bought this yarn I’ve been obsessed with knitting up this cardy-of-my-own-design. The yarn knits up pretty quickly, but even so, I’ve spent many hours since last Tuesday knitting this sweater. Hours that I technically should’ve been using to take care of my list of “business priorities.”
What’s really funny is that despite my obsession with this particular knit project, I’ve got another one on the the needles (also of my own design) that I suddenly decided I want to try to finish up so I can submit the design to Knitty for it’s Winter issue (deadline September 15). I spent the weekend feverishly calculating the pattern and knitting while watching the Mary Tyler Moore show on DVD.
Here’s where having a lot of free time and no one to “answer to” bites me in the hiney. If I had a boss, or investors (besides Mick) or even regular customers, my priorities would be laid out for me. Since I have none of these things, I have to be disciplined enough to set my own priorities. Discipline isn’t one of my strong suits.
Mind you, I’m not complaining. I love my life. But like most people, my psyche requires that I have goals and projects to keep me feeling fulfilled as a person. Also like most people, I am easily distracted and often go from one project to another without finishing the first. I suppose that’s fine since I’m always really busy, but when the day is done and I find myself accomplishing what appears to be nothing, it kind of bums me out.
All of this said, if I can complete the design for Knitty and actually get it submitted, I will consider it a major goal accomplished. When I started this blog at the beginning of 2007, that was one of the things I wanted to do–start designing knit patterns and getting them published. So even though I haven’t been doing what I said I wanted to do with my jewelry business, I’m not beating myself up too much about it because this other goal is also important to me. If it gives me an excuse to sit around watching the Mary Tyler Moore show all day, so much the better.
Hmmm. I just checked out Mick’s link there and think I may have just self-diagnosed a lifelong problem.
“overwhelming and debilitating apathy” sounds *VERY* familiar to me…
While Holly hones her ultrafocus on knitting, I’m struggling to overcome my chronic MDD, the indolebant is not helping much.
http://www.bmj.com/cgi/content/full/332/7544/745-a
Two words for you:
Ritalin and a List
I guess that’s 4.
What does Mick do while you knit and watch Mary Tyler Moore? I can’t picture him sitting there next to you working on his own craft project?